hello lol havent done this in a minute lol

Dad i wonder sometime what kind of man you wanted me to be ??? would you want me to follow your foot steps or make my own ?? well dad at first i was doing what you did.. because i missed you and standing in your foot prints made me feel closer in a way made the pain die a little i was acting up because thats what i thought you would do i was trying to be like you so i can trick myself and say i am you so i can be happy again … happy like that 5 year old when he saw his dad and ran in his arms but like everything else it didn’t work so i went and looked for thing to numb my pain.. i would make people laugh because inside my body the images of your death was replaying every second….. the more i made people laugh the more i hurt i remember screaming at God saying ”WHY ME !!!! WHY.. IF YOU LOVE ME WHY DID YOU TOOK HIM AWAY I NEEDED HIM THIS ISN’T FAIR” i was so hurt i would go in my room and cry and for a split second i would feel the bullets you felt i love you dad and you will always be in my heart but let me tell you something i have a new Father and He is looking after me now…. every tear i dropped He caught every time i felt alone He was holding me letting me feel like i was surrounded God i thank you for taking me out of the darkness and showing me the light without you Father i wouldn’t be here so dad don’t worry i found my own path and my new Father is showing me little by little how to get to the finish line

Unless we rely on God’s power within us, we will yield to the pressures around us.

A Change Is Gonna Come

green-owls asked: why you change ur layout? the other one was way better..juss sayin, throwing that out there! :P

lmao shush